Category Archives: Thoughts

visualization of what I had inside my mind

bermimpilah …

picture taken from my favourite storybook "the little prince" teman ku pernah berkata “aku tak tahu aku harus bagaimana ?, aku tak tahu apa yang sebenarnya aku inginkan”,

aku menjawab “bermimpilah, buatlah harapan akan hidupmu, teruslah bermimpi sehingga semakin kuat pula harapanmu, semakin besar pula usahamu untuk meraihnya, bermimpilah meski mimpimu terlihat bodoh dan konyol”

“mimpi dan harapan memberi arah kemana kita ingin menuju, hanya saja jalannya yang belum terlihat, entah menurun, mendaki, curam, penuh duri atau hanya terbentang lurus, semakin kau menjaga mimpi itu, semakin terang pula cahaya yang memandumu, semakin pula kau melupakan perih nya terjatuh, semakin kuat dan kokoh pula setiap langkah-langkahmu.”

“yang terpenting dari semua itu bukanlah hasil dari mimpi dan harapanmu, tapi proses bagaimana kamu mencoba untuk meraihnya, kau telah melihat jalan yang pernah terlalui, kau pernah merasakan luka yang kau alami, kau tak kan merasa lemah lagi ketika kau harus berjalan lebih jauh.”

“bersyukurlah ketika kau meraih mimpimu, karena Sang Pemberi Hidup lah dibalik segalanya. dan jika kau tak mendapatkanya  janganlah padamkam semangat mu, lihatlah .. bukankah kau berada lebih dekat pada harapanmu, jauh lebih dekat dari saat kau memulainya dahulu, kau telah mengingat setiap jejakmu, setiap liku jalanmu, setiap persimpangan yang kau temui, rehatlah sejenak dan pilihan jalan lain yang tampak bagimu, bukankah kau telah mengerti bagaimana melaluinya… dan bahwasannya kau tidak kehilangan apapun… sedikitpun.”

nah, temanku … untuk bisa bermimpi, kita harus … tidur dulu @_@ %%^**&$$#

shade of morning

look at those roses
blooming under your window panes
run the dews upon its leaves
spread those smells of beauty throughout the morning

listen at those birds
chirping upon your highest trees
may a song of love they’re singing
pour the peaceful thought on everyone’s mind

may daylights banishes the rest of dark
leave none of worries and leave no tears
perhaps those hopes draws many smiles
and share it among the others

gentle winds will always blow
accross the sky and rainbows
take those happy stories to tell
and goodnight kisses to all weary souls

what lays in the end of the rainbow?
would it be a heaven we’ve heard before?
could you tell me
what is hidden beneath its beauty?

some secrets are remain
then no one could reveal
just let it be what it is
and live by it through beliefs

let us share the best of times
and stay together for the rest
memorized what has been through
to grow a smile on the other days

feel those harmonies
flowing gently to your deepest heart
heals every wounds you may have
rest your soul for your longest journey

let us gather beneath the shade
keep us safe from what that might harm

and look at those roses
it looks even prettier with thorns

… can you let me know?

what emptiness shall i bear
within none left even for the tears?
how should i beckon to you?
what should i do to let you aware?

i’ve been missing you for too long
then i’m afraid it will gone meaningless
i’m afraid it will only be mine
and i’m afraid of losing another hope

but..
i never deserve even to hope

can the sky carries my shout?
can the night whispers my cry?
can those winds blow my sadness?
and can your heart returns my call?

my light is always you
but now i stray in dark
my words are always admiring you
but now there’s nothing left to say

don’t give me someting that i couldn’t face
don’t tell me truth if it’ll gonna hurts
just seal it within your flattering words
hide it behind those beautiful smiles
’cause i just can’t bear another pains…

… and my soul can’t hold more scars

am i wrong?
of hoping
of hoping to be something
more to you

this bond is getting weaker
but i will stand for it forever
keep it to wait for another happiness
happiness that might forget
anything that i had left behind …

i will always let your name echoed
even when you don’t remember mine anymore

Jarak

jarak hanyalah dimensi ruang yang tidak membatasi pemikiran dan hati. pemisahan raga bukanlah pemisahan jiwa …janganlah kau berkecil hati akan jarak yang menegurmu, sapalah dengan hangat, maka dia akan membawamu lebih dekat dengan siapapun yg kau hendaki …

argh don’t let this day be over soon

Please let me stay a little bit longer on this day because this is the day that i’ve been longing for, the day that i wish to embrace and never let it over…. where all sorrows n pains are vanished, where joy and laughter bloom in every beats of heart!! where i could feel love as the greatest things in my life and it does come to me in the ways that i couldn’t understand!!…

…shall tears be dry on daylight, shall happiness pour by the rain….

but thats all will soon be over, put me back on my feet where path is hard and steep, put me back on that cold empty chamber where the loneliness kills and imaginations are contaminated…

… shall i died breathing,

*phew* the end is getting closer and day will change although i don’t want to… but life would never stay longer, many things i have to face and have it done… many things i haven’t got nor found and i will never give up searching my own daylight!

just let it stay little bit more, may some happiness still remain for my tomorrow!!
let me understand little bit more of the day that God delivered me to this world,wish i could know what was His reason giving me this life and fate…..wish i could remember my first cry, my first breath and my first sight in this world!!

so then lets close this day with hope of a brighter tomorrow, of fulfilled dreams and a perfect love…

….wish i could meet you again next year, my December 1st … my 24

december sweet december

a recitation….

December will soon be over and so on this year, soon will be change into the new one.
But time is just a time whatever we named and how we counted it. It just a gentle breeze in our hair,
comes like the way it goes.

But however it has left a lot of things behind, those which never be easy to fade, traces which never be swept away whether it was nice or not. something that we want to keep or throw away. It could be nice like the voice of angels whisper you a lullaby or it could be so painful like wounds in your flesh and its scars last forever no matter how hard you try to cure…

hope the good remains.. bring you smile every time you remember it again and to be grateful of how wonderful the life that God has given to us… and let those scars be a mirror where we reflect ourself to the mistakes we have done and let it not be committed again tomorrow.

how time does a lot of things to us, it was there when we were cried for the very first time, it was there to watch us life and grow,be the part of our everything, be the teacher who taught us everything,be the walls that echoed our happiness, be the gentle touch in our sadness and the cure of our wounds, be the eyes which we can see it through, be the chamber of our solitude and friends when we are lonely, it always be there… everywhere in anyone!!and it will always be there when we are not able to follow it again,when our hearts are no longer beating.. Time will never going back, it just like the endless river flow, never know where it was started and when it will be end, we’re just come to flow for a while…

Let us make the time useful, For ourself and the others. don’t let it just comes and goes. Let it passes like the pages of a book where we could write down our life on it, give it a meaning. Write down the memories on every pages for our reflection, for a better and brighter tomorrow, leave the good things, leave it good when the time is come for us to close it.

well, there will be another december soon, continuously over and over again but it will never be the same.soon there will be another tears and laughter for us, a new page that we have to write on.

so then good bye december and 2006…
but i still can’t find what i’m looking for yet, perhaps tomorrow…

to be concerned and concluded